I love him so much!
Friday, January 31, 2020
5 Years.
Wow, it's really been over 5 years since I've moved to NYC and 2.5 since I've last updated! Is blogging still even a thing? Do people still do it?
Oh well, who cares. I am now. (what's the word for in between now and continuing to...?)
I am so all over the place with my thoughts lately, it feels like they're all boiling to the surface from being on simmering for the last 5 yrs. So confused about what to do. Too many options that I cannot decide between. What is that?!
Anyway, I think I've finally reached the crossroads where I need to DeCiDe that I'm going to make a big change in my routine not because it's the 100% right choice, but because it's time to take the steps towards having a better existence for myself. Period. See what stress reduces with a new pattern. Stop Refusing the Call.
On this last day of January 2020, =O my options are:
-Apply for new jobs with the intention of accepting them even just for the sake of higher pay and FT status. *LEARNING EXPERIENCE*
-Use this job to save money to allow me to go to FIT for grad school or PT courses (but for credit makes more sense?) Especially since I know who the program coordinator is! Start in Spring or Summer?
-Go to EUR for tulips & meet Carl-Johan.
Probably have to put my own apt. on hold for now to focus on school and savings. Maybe in late summer/fall I can move.
Stop being so negative because it's just not fun!
I wish I could figure out what exactly it is that I need to 'conquer' while I'm here. So I can finally move somewhere new ha ha... :screams:
Oh well, who cares. I am now. (what's the word for in between now and continuing to...?)
I am so all over the place with my thoughts lately, it feels like they're all boiling to the surface from being on simmering for the last 5 yrs. So confused about what to do. Too many options that I cannot decide between. What is that?!
Anyway, I think I've finally reached the crossroads where I need to DeCiDe that I'm going to make a big change in my routine not because it's the 100% right choice, but because it's time to take the steps towards having a better existence for myself. Period. See what stress reduces with a new pattern. Stop Refusing the Call.
On this last day of January 2020, =O my options are:
-Apply for new jobs with the intention of accepting them even just for the sake of higher pay and FT status. *LEARNING EXPERIENCE*
-Use this job to save money to allow me to go to FIT for grad school or PT courses (but for credit makes more sense?) Especially since I know who the program coordinator is! Start in Spring or Summer?
-Go to EUR for tulips & meet Carl-Johan.
Probably have to put my own apt. on hold for now to focus on school and savings. Maybe in late summer/fall I can move.
Stop being so negative because it's just not fun!
I wish I could figure out what exactly it is that I need to 'conquer' while I'm here. So I can finally move somewhere new ha ha... :screams:
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